I choose to…,

I choose to believe in myself

So I’ve invested in me

No other way to show love to others than loving yourself

I choose to take care of myself

So I work on it daily

How do I show my children to

Take care of themselves if I don’t do the same

I choose to believe in someone bigger than me

The size of what I believe is not relevant but it is necessary

To describe or help someone comprehend that the picture is bigger but only because of the magnification of the glass you are looking through

See we only magnify God so that others who don’t connect, relate or even comprehend his power, goodness and worth can see Him. What they see is His expression, signs and wonders expressed in greatness.

But if they would slow down, move the distraction of the worlds measure they would see that God doesn’t have to be big or even great. He is just God and that the paradigm of all things that are good.

Big seems better than little but yet big is only a great expression of a lot of little things together.

Waiting for an answer

This summer has been great and trying. Making major decisions in life can be a faith builder and a fear exposer. The Bible’s says many times when an angel shows up “fear not!” And scripture says that God has not given us a spirit of fear but truthfully we still become fearful.

I know that fear is a natural reaction to things you can control but I believe that God knew we would fear even though He didn’t give it to us He did give us “free choice,” and because of that we will experience many types of emotions and feelings. So I got that off my chest and now that I’ve recognized the symptoms of disbelief or doubts now we need to seek solutions.

So in the word God said that His plans for us is to prosper and be in good health. Well when we fear we are causing our physical and mental health to decline. Not necessarily to great sufferance but to some pain, agony and maybe depression. Those adjectives are decoys to what God has promised you and that is “yes and amen.” He will “never” withhold anything good from you. God’s word says we can have all things through Him who strengthens you. Hold on to His word and promises. Hold on and don’t let go. Fear has to flee.

As I started talk about my major decision I had and have to make I must believe that if they line up with his word and promises I am going to be great and satisfied beyond measure. His gift far exceeds my wants and needs.

Pleasing You with my heart!

www.bible.com/111/psa.19.14.niv

Thank you God for giving me a heart for you. This is your day that you designed for me and I’m happy and joyful for it. Please protect my mind, heart and spirt from the evil one. I pray that my mouth and my heart is a wonderful representation of you. Lead and guide me in the purpose that you’ve created me for. Cover me with your glory and honor. I will set my heart and mind on pleasing you. If I fall short of your expectations, show me your way and direct my heart to your heart. Thanks for your love in Jesus name, Amen.

The struggle!

Listen to the most recent episode of my podcast: The struggle https://anchor.fm/tina-dunham/episodes/The-struggle-e3fvse

“Then Jacob prayed, “O God of my father Abraham, God of my father Isaac, Lord, you who said to me, ‘Go back to your country and your relatives, and I will make you prosper,’ I am unworthy of all the kindness and faithfulness you have shown your servant. I had only my staff when I crossed this Jordan, but now I have become two camps. Save me, I pray, from the hand of my brother Esau, for I am afraid he will come and attack me, and also the mothers with their children. But you have said, ‘I will surely make you prosper and will make your descendants like the sand of the sea, which cannot be counted.’ ””

‭‭Genesis‬ ‭32:9-12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/111/gen.32.9-12.niv

The power of silence

Have you ever had to say no to someone? Was that no because you couldn’t or because you didn’t want to? Well, I have and later I heard the message years later.

I just had a conversation with our oldest child. She has been though a lot financially, emotionally and spiritually. I didn’t realize that I said no to her about a need and then she saw me give what she asked for and more to the church or in our tithes. I do remember that I’ve said no to giving of resources but I not sure if was because we didn’t have it or that we wanted her to figure it out on her own. I do know throughout the years we have given so much out of our lack to our children so it could have been a purpose of a lesson.

My husband and I have provide a pretty good life for our children, I would say. We moved in neighborhoods that may have been out of our financial budget but we sacrificed because we wanted them to have more than we have. In this sacrifice we may have accumulated unnecessary bills but we have been blessed to have careers to pay them off.

My husband and I believe in tithing even when it means we are left with little. We understand the the tithes do not belong to us and that we are blessed with our career because of our sacrifices.

Anyway, we didn’t give our daughter any money at that time. Granted we have given countless others times in many different ways but it bothered her. She didn’t necessarily express it then but just recently she did.

Our daughter doesn’t see paying tithes or to the church the way we do. She like many see many churches or leaders abusing the resources or tithes and offering via news, social and local churches. Often we see pastors driving high in cars, planes and large homes. Many times that small amount of leaders who have and are abusing the resources makes it difficult for those who are living with integrity and morals.

I heard it said by many including our daughter that “God knows my heart,” but my question do you know God’s heart? What would we do if He based his blessings only on our sacrifice. What would happen if he thought of our needs based on how we responded to his word?

I thank God that He does treat me or you according to how we treat Him. I don’t know what I would do if I only receive as I’ve given or not given. This is in reference to service, tithes and offerings, prayer and time in His word. Many times we want to make a withdrawal from the bank without making a deposit.

If we look at God’s rate of return compared to our financial institutions we would be appalled. Appalled at how little the rate of return from our financial investment are compared to how we have been blessed by God. I don’t know a bank yet that keep a car that my mom has going for almost 20 years. I believe she’s blessed from her sacrifice to the church and her family. I believe my children’s are blessed because of generations of giving and serving. This is an example of God’s rate of return. Getting approved for a house or car that you don’t qualify for and then receiving resources to pay it off sooner. Funds being released when you’ve been told “no” countless times.

God has a way of show us how we can live better in the 90% than we would on the 100%.

So, I would say to you and my daughter, give God the benefit of His word and let Him take care of those leaders who abuse the church.

Heavenly Father, thanks for all the ways you have given us love, resources and peace even when we don’t deserve it. Father we ask that you will make sure that your word is clear to those who don’t know your heart and words of giving and sacrifice. We should seek you when it comes to our silence in regards to a “no” and a offense. Give us wisdom to judge our intentions and responsible to make sure our silence doesn’t separate us from your love and blessings but help us to develop a better relationship with you. Help us to decrease our want and understand your message. Father I believe your words about tithes and I seen your increase in my life in many ways. Give me the wisdom and guidance to show your light in me to lead my family and those you’ve assigned to me. This will be done in Jesus name Amen.